I am ready to give up

Hey guys, Dimeswag here.

Pain without love
Pain I cant get enough
Pain I like it rough
C'ause i'd rather feel pain that nothing at all
-Three Days Grace

You know that feeling when you want to know something really bad but you never know.
Yeah I am feeling that. when you like someone right? you want to know how they feel about you, you want them to like you back right? what if they don't. would you rather know that they don't like you at all. Or do you rather let them not even acknowledge you as a being. any feeling is better than none right? people think suicide if a ticket out of their misery but surviving is better that outright killing yourself and ending it... Game Over. Being alive is the greatest feeling ever. No matter what the situation, good or bad, life is always worth living. But is nothing at all better than misery and pain? No. Life is about love and hate. You can't have love without hate. What happened if you don't have either? My situation is that; you know that girl right? Of course you do :-/ well she thinks I am invisible. Nothing new right? Well I want to tell her I like her but I don't know how. I would say it and it would be irrelevant anyways because she barely knows I am here. Anyways she has had a lot of people like her. About 4/6 of them told her. She never forgets them, assuming whether she likes them or not (so I am told). The thing is i don't want he part of that collective group. Its like a closet. The more cluttered it is the less you can see what is in the closet. Its been 3 years for me and I haven't said a word. She is the type of person that guys are compelled to tell her they like her right off the bat. I have kept my mouth shut for three years. All I want to know is how she feels about me. I could care less if she doesn't like me. I could care less if she thinks I am weird, ugly, or even if she hates me. I just want her to know who I am. I want to feel her presence, in one form of another. I swear I never meant to let it die, but it was never alive in the first place. I still have a chance but I know the outcome. Knowing what will happen before it does is a scary feeling. Predicting what is uncertain is a curse. I am sure she will turn me down if I tell her how I feel. I am hopeless, over the edge, I'm just breathless. I'd never though that I'd feel such uncertainty in my head. All I want is for her to know who I am
- Love Dimeswag (NoHomo)