I think i get it now

Hey guys, Dimeswag here. Ok... I think I just realized something. Maybe she doesn't like me. It was possible all along but I couldn't get my stupid little head to wrap around the idea that she may not be interested. The more I think about it the more I have second thoughts. I don't know whether to cut the blue wire and slowly become closer or cut the red wire and drop the "I really like you" bomb on her... Honestly my time is running out and the bomb is ready to blow up, and its strapped around my chest. I would hate to ruin our nonexistsnt relationship.

Yesterday... If you recall in my last post i said there was a guy bothering "her" and i wasn't happy about it. That guy was my friends ex boyfriend. And they just recently broke up... The pictures he forced "her" to take went on Instagram. And my friend saw it and thought they were going out now ( after they broke up though, the picture wasn't the reason they broke up) so she wanted to talk to me about it not knowing that she was forced to take the picture. Since it was her ex boyfriend and this amazing girl I always talk about, I would blame her for wanting to talk about it.

So we talked for about 20 minutes. She told me why they broke up. She gave me advice on how to treat and act around my crush. The talk on the phone was... Not what I am used to. I am usually on the phone to say stuff like "Love you grandma!" or "hey mom, did I leave my lunch at home?" not to talk about my feelings. As soon as my phone ran, my heartbeat increased about ten times the norm. I didn't know what to say. I was nervous. It was my friend that's a girl that I talk to all the time... I don't understand why i was so nervous. Maybe the phone has special powers :P

Today i took her advice. I went up to her and asked her a question that required an answer. She gave the simplest of answers... "yes". And I was go into add on to my question but she turned around and started to walk away as soon as I stopped for a half second. But I panicked when she was walking away so I tried to capture attention again. All I wanted her to do is listen to me... Just for a few seconds. I listen to her all the time... Even when she isn't talking to me (which is always). I gathered her attention and finished my thoughts. But then she turned around and walked away after I was t talking just as fast as the first time. He who pays attention should be given attention.

What I think is that she doesn't know how to hold a conversation with guys... Maybe that's not the reason. Maybe she doesn't like to talk to me... Maybe its because I am ugly (I doubt that) maybe its because she just can't wait for my conversation to end but doesn't want to be rude. 

I really like her and I want her to notice me. Even if it's for a few seconds.

When i looked into her eyes I saw beautiful. I only needed 2 seconds to realize that she was amazing. More that I have said thus far. 

-Love Dimeswag (No Homo)

Oh.

I normally hate really short posts on a blog such as ones like this made for longer thoughtful responses. But earlier as I was trying to solo learn a new concept in may with my brother (that he already knew) when we stopped the first thing I'd said was "yeah haha I don't think I should jump ahead like this, my teachers would be more than satisfied if I'd just stay with the curriculum." I said this not out of laziness but out of logical thinking that I wouldn't be able to grasp a concept 2 years ahead of my own grade level without knowing basic fundamentals.

Unfortunately what I had not done was go back and continue the lesson. I really feel I should have but it seems like I'm pretty ahead anyway why kill myself to be the best. So in the end I had felt guilty about not learning something that I had only the slightest grasps of the root of the lesson. And it kind of kills me because I still feel I can learn it.

So out of all of this I extract one message.
"The fastest way to learn something is to not have a way out of it"

So if you want something done, cut out requirements that you will keep honest to yourself.

And also don't try to learn the law of sines without first knowing what a sine itself means.

-Andrew

Why does this bug me?

 Hey guys, Dimeswag here. Have you ever been bothered when someone touches your girl? Your sibling? Yo' Mama. Yeah you don't like it do you? but the think is no one has ever touched my Mama, my sister, or my girl (mostly because I have never had one) but i still am feeling protective. Let me tell you about a story of my situation ok? So afterschool my friends "her" and then there was this guy. You know that guy in school that is popular but is obnoxious to everyone... Yeah that guy. He was bothering her so much. He was pitting his arm around her. Huging her and forcing her to take pictures with her and i don't think she enjoyed it. But... It wasn't even that innocent (if you call that innocent) he bit her, gave her bruises, and called her a bitch. Not Cool. I got so pissed atgim that i even started to tear up a little, my temper rose so high. I literally wanted to punch him in the face. he took her iPod and took it to the bathroom... -_- when he came back he told her to take another picture and she said no... So he too the headphones and nearly choked her. I don't even understand if he was trying to flirt or what. I though maybe she wanted a hug from someone less aggressive so I come in arms open from behind (Dony take it wrong) and halfway there she turns around and I quickly retract my arms... Like a dope. You know how girls like hugs from behind right? Well... Most girls do I don't know still. I just want a hug really bad. I need a hug. Need to be close to her. maybe if I get one hug in it will become regular. I don't know. Anyways next time that guy tries to touche her aggressively... We are going to have a talk (literally)
-Love Dimeswag (No Homo) #Ineedahug

Lets write a story children!

So I thought this was funny. Currently in my advanced/gifted ELA class there is this assignment due tomorrow.

The assignment was to write a draft of a mystery/horror story approximately 6 - 10 pages (3-5 sheets)
Well this is why I thought it was funny. On the included rubric the story is to be told from the view point of the creep, of the one committing the horror, but the rubric says to write this story keep in mind what the victim likes, what the victim is interested in, and
ways to fool the victim into coming with you.

Sounds familiar? That's right, the story must be written as if we were pedophiles / rapists.

Why is this funny? Its just a story prompt right? (Well actually I can find multiple things amiss from the norm)  But something interesting came to mind. How does this relate to the curriculum? Think of it, writing a story is fine, mystery/horror = sensory details. Where does pedophilia and psychologic play of small children come into play? And isn't a grown woman teaching a whole grade level of children to be future rapists?

The only logical reasons I could think of is that our teacher...
-Was horny thinking of this prompt
-Plans to use the ideas we implement in the near future
-or Wants to form a generation of rapists.

Logically the one I turned to was the part where she tries to judge the maturity level of students she has been given but still the story prompt isn't quite right.

Well I should get to writing soon, 6 pages of writing thoughts of a pedo isn't going to do itself. (No pun intended).

But

The best part is we have to share our rape fantasies with large groups.

F*ck. (Pun intended)
Ta~ta Now. -Andrew