Hey guys, Dimeswag here. Ok... I think I just realized something. Maybe she doesn't like me. It was possible all along but I couldn't get my stupid little head to wrap around the idea that she may not be interested. The more I think about it the more I have second thoughts. I don't know whether to cut the blue wire and slowly become closer or cut the red wire and drop the "I really like you" bomb on her... Honestly my time is running out and the bomb is ready to blow up, and its strapped around my chest. I would hate to ruin our nonexistsnt relationship.
Yesterday... If you recall in my last post i said there was a guy bothering "her" and i wasn't happy about it. That guy was my friends ex boyfriend. And they just recently broke up... The pictures he forced "her" to take went on Instagram. And my friend saw it and thought they were going out now ( after they broke up though, the picture wasn't the reason they broke up) so she wanted to talk to me about it not knowing that she was forced to take the picture. Since it was her ex boyfriend and this amazing girl I always talk about, I would blame her for wanting to talk about it.
So we talked for about 20 minutes. She told me why they broke up. She gave me advice on how to treat and act around my crush. The talk on the phone was... Not what I am used to. I am usually on the phone to say stuff like "Love you grandma!" or "hey mom, did I leave my lunch at home?" not to talk about my feelings. As soon as my phone ran, my heartbeat increased about ten times the norm. I didn't know what to say. I was nervous. It was my friend that's a girl that I talk to all the time... I don't understand why i was so nervous. Maybe the phone has special powers :P
Today i took her advice. I went up to her and asked her a question that required an answer. She gave the simplest of answers... "yes". And I was go into add on to my question but she turned around and started to walk away as soon as I stopped for a half second. But I panicked when she was walking away so I tried to capture attention again. All I wanted her to do is listen to me... Just for a few seconds. I listen to her all the time... Even when she isn't talking to me (which is always). I gathered her attention and finished my thoughts. But then she turned around and walked away after I was t talking just as fast as the first time. He who pays attention should be given attention.
What I think is that she doesn't know how to hold a conversation with guys... Maybe that's not the reason. Maybe she doesn't like to talk to me... Maybe its because I am ugly (I doubt that) maybe its because she just can't wait for my conversation to end but doesn't want to be rude.
I really like her and I want her to notice me. Even if it's for a few seconds.
When i looked into her eyes I saw beautiful. I only needed 2 seconds to realize that she was amazing. More that I have said thus far.
-Love Dimeswag (No Homo)
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